Since starting my new life, I’m still occasionally struck with a moment of sheer panic—I haven’t applied to any jobs lately! As soon as it hits me, I roll my eyes and go about my day, but a week or even just a couple days later, it’ll hit me again. My brain has been so conditioned into looking for the “the next big thing” that it feels weird—wrong, even—to not be constantly scouring job sites for potential positions.
I updated my resumé last week to make it current: Added in The HSUS, took out a role I’d only had for a short time, condensed some things (more on resumés later), got it all nice and sitting pretty on one page, and then realized—I had nowhere to send it. Of course, you can find it on my website, but no one’s going to see that baby for at least a few years.
Breaking habits is hard to do. When your life is consumed by job-hunting, even when you’re employed, even when you’re employed and doing what you love, it’s difficult to quench that thirst for finding that perfect something, something located where you’ve always wanted to work, or frankly, just something that would pay better.
I won’t be the one to tell you to stop that search—ever. If you’re unhappy, and I mean genuinely, feel-it-in-the-pit-of-your-stomach, not-sure-you’ll-ever-feel-better unhappy (more on that later too), fight like hell. Reach for the goddamn stars and never give up. Easier said than done, of course, but you’ll have no one to blame but yourself if you don’t at least try to climb out of that hole.
No, I’m here to tell you what you should do when you finally reach a point where you can stop searching. You can let yourself feel happy, relieved even. And the catharsis that comes when you embrace that moment is pure bliss. Continue reading “On always looking forward.”